I just got of the phone. It was with her ! Yes, the sparkle in her eyes when she smiles make me happy. She feels like a long-lost destination, “Home” indeed. I want to write something to her, will it be letter, I’m contemplating. The song that’s playing in my background (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=90Q5bMN6u2w&t=2s)
I just put that on loop . …… humne socha na tha !!!
She is a great friend of mine… I knew her from the age which qualifies to be in the range of “toddlers.” . Yes, I liked her , Did she knew ? Did she realised ? I do not know. She used to stay very close to my house. We used to hangout quite a lot, our moms were friends. Due to some reason, they had to shift some place and quite naturally, distance won ! . Somehow connected once or twice through fb , got her no. when I was college. Our conversations was limited to “HAPPY BIRTHDAYS !!”
On march 1st , of this year something different happened . We had a conversation, for more than 6 hours .. and within a week , text converted to calls… and lockdown helped us to get on zoom at a real quick . What next , Days became brighter , nights became beautiful !! Just kidding nothing of this sort happened , I am a software engineer , so my life is pretty FU***d.
We were going on a great ride together … but Murphy’s Law , …. Conflict of Interest … I suck !!! could not handle great things happening and I was a bit more focused on a bit different things happening with me. Could not handle that. Maybe “GOOD” is enough for me .. I am not meant for ‘’GREAT”. But, yes, I did not run this time, I talked she understood, we had a pact !!! she stood by me ,she stands by me … I do by her !!! I will by her… Am I in love? No. Am I Delusional ? I do not think so .. Do I like her ? Indeed ...Will I send this to he ? Hope So 😊 The song now playing (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0E-OZtDEW-M)
So, let me continue with the letter.
Hi Sunflower, Hope this letter sees you while you are smiling through it .. you look damn pretty when you smile and we have not met a long time . ! A note of thanks .. Yes , you deserve it. Hey girl, you inspire me … the work ethic which I see in you makes me proud. You had my back on days I wanted to give up on things .. You made me realise, How life could be … rather how life should be !!! I found my happiness in small things … (A ping from you… It Is no small thing indeed . Maam got some time to ping me.)
On my bad days, you were my tomorrow … cause they are always beter . There were a few days when I could not be the person I expect myself to be. I ran away .. from you .. from us .. Sorry , from the bottom of my heart .. Pls forgive me for those days .
--the song now playing (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sCP5emCrGEE)
I remember talking to you for nights which turned to morning. You made me realise what was important .. Thank You !!! You helped me grow. I know you must be wanting to see me now.
So , .
(Bad camera actually I much more sexy! )
I had a lot to do … I have a lot to do also … but now with you !!! I would let you know what happens and I would always try, to check up on you … I would back you up, whenever you need me. I would cheer for you when you run !!! never dare to stop running for your dreams.. I will be hurt !! Live Love Laugh, be happy, spread happiness…
I am really sorry for not making up time this year to meet you …. Sure will do that sometime soon. I disturbed you a lot and I am really not sorry for those unplanned long calls and pointless conversations….
Hope the next year will be better … You really push me, where I need to be. Thanks for giving us time, a different perspective and hope of sometime someday …
Yours ….. (Serendipity <3)
Ok BYE !! Gotta go !!! I Will be back someday, with Your best gift .. “US .. INDEED .. Over a cup of coffee ..”
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