I always start writing with a song..and here it goes…..
Firstly, Hello all and Secondly I am Sorry, Going to be quite a long post (And tum logo ka 30 minutes aab gaya .)
So, I am just composing myself where to start from. Let me start from the 29th November , 2020.(10:35 am ) – came out of exam hall , papa asked “kaisa hua ?” --- I said or ekbaar pakka aana padega papa …nhi ho paya .
Same evening … stood in front of the mirror … said to myself 2 lines and wrote them and pasted(not posted …lol) on my wall.
30th November …. DT ka slot 1 answer key se QA match krwaya or khud ko gaali diya for fucking silly mistakes (I am like that only … ☹ can not help it ).
Socha ki , next year books padunga – VARC improve ho jayegi .QA or DILR to ok ok hi hai ….
Answer Key aaya : RAW SCORE – 105/104 (I don’t remember properly ….).. Btw , I am so optimistic , I just wrote the bigger number before smaller number . [Expecting 97-98 percentile … I believe in Murphy’s LAW]
Went out to a trip with college frnds.
I had my flight back to home on 2ndJan , 2021 : I was standing on the security check line .
Notification : CAT RESULT RELEASED !!!
I felt bad .. cursed my luck … but (I am god with moving on .. had my decent share of heart breaks earlier …lol .)
I sent this to my papa . Unka reply aata hai : “Get your ass back to the seat and bloody start working for it ” … (aisa tone nhi tha par matlab yahi tha …. believe me.)
Started to work again .. Started with QA basics and kind of reading ….
One best advice I can give –“Though U are a Veteran with your skillset.. Newbie at heart is all that counts .”
Then days passed … with No significant improvement in VARC and doing all those Quant Concepts again and again .
But whenever I went on with bad days … I used to reach to AIWTSAC … read someone else’s post … thought ki life me kuch kar payu ya nap ayu .. people should stand beside my deathbed saying …”He inspired me with his work ethics … ” [Saasta Motivation OP]
Last year PG( pagalguy, it used to be a good platform .. UI update iska maa = bhen kr diya ).Usme mra ek hi aim tha … I need to go closer to CAT. DT is a place to be … they mostly make it . So , CAT 2021 ho paaye ya na paaye… wo dekh lenge .. par iss baar CAT ko saala kareeb se dekhna hai … So, go to DT .. interact with people .. ask silly , stupid , unimportant questions to anybody and everybody who comes across.
Then Pre-simcat1 happened (I did not give it window. Gave later .)
Then Pre-simcat 2/3 happened (mra Okayish sa gaya …. )
[kuch bande nazar me aaye …ki paper ko inse izaat bachane padta hai..
1.@derrabe 2.@myterious10 3.@dada_99 (tab name alag tha) 4.@knockknock
5.@darknite14096.@arvind98.... Baaki or bhi bhoot log the mre se achche level ke .
But then kept my head down and Hopes higher … Joind gym .. And believe me .. fucking every rep counts .(Sasta Motivation OP -- 2)
One day around march, got the actual name and number of @mysterious10. And as you know me much well till now … what could I have done .. called him … was a bit scared bos use pehle ek , do or mock ho gaya tha and he fucking struck them out of the park .. quite a normal thing to ME by now .
Got Ankan’s number from someone .. called him . .. use dara nhi .. (theek hai number achcha laata hai .. par first timer hi toh hai … lol …. Ab darta hu bhai .. kaasam se and my mom loves you more .. cause you score more than me in every mock … ).
Discussed one two mock with him.
Talked to @butterfly53.. introduced myself as a fanboy of her scores .. I am still . Thoda stories suna about DT… got more fascinated .. scrabbler hota hai DT me .
May/June èDT me chance mil gaya… ooo bhai !!! I was fucking happy .. kuch ho sakta hai .. Par was afraid too. Cause , I am a believer of Murphy’s Law . :P
Arvind messaged me in whatsapp from DT ka grp.
The second thing I asked was , call kerle ?I am that guy 😊 wasting everybody’s time and that too unapologetically.
Kevil ka number liya . Arvind se . VARC god tha .. the first thing he said .. sayan pata hai kitta novel pada hu main … I replied “100 around”. He said ZERO…. Mre ko mra bhagwaan mil gaya ….
Ek group BANAYA “GOAL DIGGERS” … added , Arvind , Kevil , and Bhaskar(my co-founders) and said unlogo ki ek chotta group banana hai .. jisme topper nhi honge toh bhi chalega .. par topper banne ka saapne rakhna padega .
Then the group went on to increasing in size, warmth , care , love , gratitude and hospitality …
Bhaskar ne call krke mre ko ek baat bola after few mocks.”Saala, Sayan kya group bana diya be .. NO score is safe .”
Few people came in .. and I thought I worked hard … They defined hardwork for me . @ Raman that is for you .
I thought I am that guy who never give up, fuck , then I looked at @ Saarthak , ,, his attitude in words … “If I am in a war . I would love to look at the bullet that comes to my head rather than dying while running for life …. ”
@Prateek se mra baat hua tha pehle ek do baar , ki isne DILR ka ijaat le liya hai .
@Varnit è I love you … (brotherly wala … lol ….)
Then , one guy was shaping up .
Avi_shrivastava è any mock score of is gives me chills in my spine till date . Avi tune suru kiya live mock ka silsila .. hum saabne diye . gaand toh fata . par kya maaza aaya .
@Kartikeya è If I could show you how much respect I have for you …. But in 1 line … Bawa , You are beautiful.
@Abhar got added and couple of more people , They made MOCKS look like a GAME and …. They all together taught me one thing … “THERE .. IS .. A .. MYSTERY .. TO EVERY .. MADNESS”
One thing happened … I changed .. I started to feel .. Kuch ho sakta hai iss baar .
September happened … October happened … [OOPS I MISSED THE PG UI FUCK UP !!! THEY KILLED THE PLATFORM ….]
November happened ….. Days passed .. Adrenalin rushed … Heart beat raised … Dopamine released ….Hopes became High… head became filled with memories of the journey …Yeas , MY failure in CAT 2020 was WORTH IT !!!
From Last week to Last day to Last minute … And its over now ..
Patan hi kya hoga .. sooch bhi nhi raha to be frank …. Hope will be greatb for everybody <3
(CAT IS SO YESTERDAY) --- I copied this .Baaki upar wala original tha ..
“I am a BETTER VERSION of myself because of you……THANK YOU”
TAKE A BOW … Mates….. and pat yourself .
Do it please , .. you have done a lot … for yourself .
SPCL MENTION : @shanay è tu nhi hota na bro , main CAT tak pagal hi ho jata … thanks for hanging in there with me and for me . Saala 194 laa diya tha live mock me BC !!!
And I will have always had a faith while fallingand I will say … Sayan do not be frightened --- They love you more that you love yourself … so somebody will be there to catch you ..
Sorry .. Not Sorry … for all the multiple 30mins and 1 hour calls.
All I know ….Time is a valuable thing…..Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings….Watch it count down to the end of the day ….The clock ticks life away
-------I TRIED SO HARD AND CAME SO FAR BUT IN THE END--------------------
YOU GUYS MATTER (INDEED A LOT TO ME….)
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